Home?

I live in a home which never felt like home.
I live in a home which is full of anger.
I live in a home where i can't live without crying.

My home is like a haunted place, i know I'm surrounded by ghosts, i can't run away even if I'm scared because i have nowhere to go and no one beside those ghosts.

I live in a home where i can't express.
I live in a home where misogyny and patriarchy are pillars.
I live in a home where i can't laugh out loud.
I live in a home where I can't cry freely.
I live in a home where I can't wear what i like.
I live in a home where i can't talk back.
I live in a home where I should stay silent to keep the peace.
I live in a home where I should listen and nothing else.
I live in a home where i have present myself as a trophy.
I live in a home where I should earn every grain I eat.
I live in a home where I should show my gratitude each and every minute.


I live in a home where I shiver when i hear shutting doors and loud noises.
I live in a home where I hate my own name.
I live in a home where i get alert when i hear someone coming.
I live in a home where money speaks.
I live in a home where i am not me.


I live in a home where I'll be loved only if I behave as they want.
I live in a home but I'm not sure whether it's mine or not.



~lilly❤️‍🩹