The question

I always want to know how things works...Why things work and how does those things. Not just the activitied humans do. But whole whole system as one. How are we interconnected. How are we functioning. Why are we functioning. These things make me believe in God or a mighty being above us watching everything. But then that make me question again. Why is there so many bad and so many people are out there feeliy living from sucking the life out of innocent people. Ever since I was a kid, I always wanted to help other people. Be it a flower selling lady or a man running grocery shop or a man riding a cycle. I want to speak with them and connect with them and hear their story and sorrow and do anything to help them. But I am so socially anxious to actually do that. So I just sit and see. I will observe. I will try to portray my thoughts by other means like drawing or writing or cooking. But I know that I have no talent. No talent in anything. So I just gaze. Sometimes I go on so deep in thoughts on a way that's alarming. But I am still just a child in my eyes. I will grow up. I will grow up strong enough to carry the responsibility and the ability to help others.