The Person I’m Becoming

There are so many things i never say out loud.

Sometimes I wonder how different life would feel if i could tell people exactly what goes on in my mind. Nit because i want attention but because keeping everything inside can become exhausting . I smile ,laugh,talk to people ,reply to messages ,attend classes,make friends and continue with my day like everything is normal.But there are moments when I quietly feel lost ,even when I’m surrounded by people.

I have learned that growing up is not just about becoming independent It is also about learning how to deal with emotions that you don’t always understand some days i feel extremely motivated and believe I can ach everything i want. Other days even the smallest things feel difficult and i question whether I am doing enough.

I miss the version of my self who do nit overthink every little things. the person who could enjoy a simple evening without worrying about tomorrow. Somewhere along the way , i started putting pressure on myself to become someone i could be proud of. may be thats not a bad thing but sometimes i forgot that i am still learning.

These are people I miss but will probably never message again. These are conservation i wish had ended differently these are friendships i thought would last forever and memories that still randomly come back.

But I’m slowly understanding that nit everything needs an explanation or a perfect ending.

Some people are meant to say, some are meant to teach us something and some are simply meant to become a memory.

So if u are reading this and feeling the same way just know u are not alone you don’t have to have figure out everything right now its okay to take your time to change to outgrow people and start it again.