Missed opportunity

This morning was a very productive. I woke up to the good news that I had received a research study in my inbox. I was delighted because this study was going to pay me well for my time. Without thinking for a moment I started that study while I was still sipping up my coffee. I had finished the study before I had finished my coffee. After sometime I had received another study which again was paying me well. I finished that study as well. Till 10 o'clock in the morning I had already had completed some work which was going to pay me well. I was indeed happy because of the work I had got done today and the subsequent payment that I was going to receive from it. I thought to myself that it is going to be a product of and profitable day.

Later around 12:00 p.m. I had received a freelance task. I had started working on that task and I was about to finish. Before I could press submit button I lost the internet connectivity. Because of this entire work that I had done on the project got wiped off. Everything was gone. Nothing was saved. I had just 5 minutes to complete that project and I knew in those 5 minutes I could not reproduce the entire work. I was disappointed but I let go off that task. With worries and disappointment, I saw the task disappearing from my work list. The status of the task showd "timed out". I was frustrated. I shut down the app and I focused on other things which I wanted to do. Suddenly I was not feeling as motivated as I had felt in the morning. I was disappointed and little disheartened. I felt like I was worthless. One failed task and all negative thoughts started bothering me.

Later I thought about the entire incident. I had given my time and efforts to this task. Nowhere I have faltered on completing my responsibilities. The reason it could not get submitted was beyond my control. A tiny human like me cannot control the external factors. I could not control the internet connectivity. I could not have done anything in that moment. I understood that the task could not be completed not because of my inefficiency but rather it could not get completed because of the external factors I could no longer control. I said to myself you cannot win all the battles. You need to lose some battles to understand the meaning of the victory.

This was so real. I lost one task and that made me realise how important was completion of the task. This one failed task made me realise the importance of the tasks that I had completed this morning. I thought to myself that I should not be disappointed because of one task that I could not get completed. I should celebrate the tasks that I had successfully completed in a short time. I should give more attention to the small wins rather than focusing on the failures. I closed my eyes and opened them with a new hope.

With that thought I was no longer disappointed. I felt much of positive energy after thinking in this way. I let go of one opportunities that I missed. And now I have decided that this evening I am going to celebrate my small wins. I don't know how but this is for sure that today's wins will be celebrated.