Learning To Be Alone

I used to think being alone is one of the worst feeling in the world. Whenever I had nothing to do or no one to talk to , I immediately felt lonely. I believed that if my phone isn’t buzzing with notifications or if i didn’t have plans with someone , then something was wrong . I would spend hours scrolling through social media reels , watching other people hangout , travel , enjoy life , and somehow it made my own life feel smaller . I didn’t realise that i was constantly depending on other people to fill the silence. As time passed , life naturally became busier for everyone. Friends had their own responsibilities , people stopped talking often , and there were many days when i had no option but to spend time with myself . At first , i hated it , i kept checking my phone every now and then hoping someone would text or call , Most of the yje time nothing happened , and that silence felt really heavy . Slowly , though , i stopped waiting for someone else to make my day better . I started listening to music without doing anything else , watching sunsets with from my balcony , taking short walks and even sitting quietly with my own thoughts. It felt strange in the beginning because i wasn’t used to it , but after a while i noticed that i actually enjoyed these moments . I wasn’t trying to impress anyone or keep up with anyone. I was simply existing , and somehow that felt peaceful . Being alone also made me notice things about myself that i had ignored for years . I realised what genuinely made me happy , what i wanted to improve , ans how much energy i had wasted trying to be accepted by everyone . I understood that its impossible to be liked by every person you meet , and that’s perfectly okay . I also learned that loneliness and being alone is completely different things . You can feel lonely in a room ful of people , ans you can feel completely at peace sitting by yourself . The realisation changed the way i looked at the solitude . Of course , there are still days when i miss people , there are evening when i wish someone would randomly call me or sit beside me and talk about nothing . Those feelings haven’t been disappeared , and i dont think they ever will because we are all humans . But now they do not make me panic . I know they will pass , i have learned that my own company isn’t something is not something that i need to escape from anymore . In fact , it’s become one of the places where i feel the safest . I still love spending time with people i care about , laughing with friends and making more of the memories . And its one of the best thing i do for myself