Feeling of left out

It never struck me as being neglected until it took ages for me to realise it. I also give everyone the benefit of doubt. But when people are curious about your life but are not wiling to

share their life with you but they do

so with everyone else. It feels not weird but outright as being cast out. As in i am fit for them to feed me even when i did not ask. They were happy to poke their noses into my life when I was minding my business but they did not bother to be honest. Then how does it matter when they try to be polite and kind. They never realised this is superficial?. Or they taught i am still naive that i will never realise it?. I am innocent not dumb. There is a huge difference in that. It is amazing that they preach about being in touch with others but they dont follow it. This is beyond rude. This is the height of hypocrsy and also glad that you no longer have to pretend and be the only one taking efforts. It is a two ways street and I am certain it missed their notice when they were self

absorbed.